Josh Powell's Final Message: 'I Am Not Able to Live Without My Sons'

As investigators pore over the gutted Washington state home of Josh Powell for evidence explaining how and why he murdered his two sons and killed himself in a gas explosion, ABC News has exclusively obtained what is believed to be his final words to his loved ones.

Powell left a voicemail for his family just 20 minutes before attacking his two young boys Braden, 5, and Charles, 7, with a hatchet and igniting a gas leak that blew up his house on Sunday afternoon.

"I am not able to live without my sons, and I'm not able to go on anymore. I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt. Goodbye," the voicemail message said.

Many are now looking at the tumultuous relationship that Josh Powell had with his father Steven Powell, whose September arrest led to charges of 14 counts of voyeurism and one count of child pornography. The pornographic images were kept in the home the two men shared with Josh and Susan's boys – a fact which led to Josh Powell losing full custody of his sons.

The boys were ordered in a Washington court in September to remain in the custody of Susan Powell's parents Chuck and Judy Cox because they had been living in a dangerous home environment with sexually explicit material, and because of the possibility that Josh Powell participated in the voyeurism and child pornography charges against his father.

Steven Powell has now been named a person of interest in the disappearance of Susan Powell, according to Seattle's Q13 FOX News, which reports that he was not overly emotional when he heard the news of the explosion, and has been uncooperative with Pierce County deputies. He is currently on suicide watch.

John Hallewell, who was Josh Powell's best friend, says that Sunday's murder/suicide was likely not done as revenge against his missing wife because "all he ever thought about was himself."

"Josh has his problems, but he was trying to do what was right and start a family and do all those things … I think especially once Josh moved to live with his father, and he just got a hold of him, and basically he went downhill pretty fast from there," Hallewell told ABC News.

"I don't think it could have been for revenge," Hallewell added. "I think it was more a case where he thought he was in a corner and didn't have a way of keeping the kids, and thought if I can't have them nobody's going to. I don't think he even thinks enough about anyone else to do it for revenge."

Alina Powell, Josh Powell's sister, released a statement on Tuesday regarding her brother's death.

"Josh and his boys spent more than two years being crushed alive by hate, harassment, and abuse. None of us could have anticipated the devastating tragedy that took place Sunday, but what this unimaginable loss shows is that hate will never end well," Alina Powell said in the statement. "Hate kills."

 

Powells Moved to Utah to Escape Father

In addition to finding voyeuristic images of two of Steven Powell's neighbors on the 61-year-old's hard drive, investigators found images of his own daughter-in-law, Susan, who went missing in December of 2009 under bizarre circumstances.

In a September 2011 interview with "Good Morning America, Steven Powell said that he was in love with his son's 28-year-old wife, and that his son was fine with that.

Police in Washington say that's simply not true. Sgt. Ed Troyer, Pierce County sheriff's spokesman called these statements fabrications.

"Everything he's saying about Susan and him having any type of relationship is a flat-out lie. She didn't like him, [she] thought he was a creep and weird," Troyer said.

Susan Powell's friends say she told them her concerns about Steven Powell were a major factor in the family's decision to move to Utah in the first place—to raise their children far away from her father-in-law.

"When I first met Josh they has just moved from Washington to Utah, and they were trying to get away from the influence of Josh's dad," Hallewell told ABC News adding that Susan had told him that Steven Powell would never be allowed to set foot in her house.

Just last week, in the latest of an ongoing custody battle between himself and Susan's parents Chuck and Judy Cox, Josh Powell made a declaration to the court that he was the best and safest person to be raising his two sons, saying he had proven to be "a fit and loving father."

Days later, he had donated the boys' belongings to Goodwill, seemingly preparing to murder the family he told ABC News in August he would always protect.

"The people who know me know that I'm a good dad," Powell told "GMA" in August. "I work hard. I put my sons first. I was a good husband. I took care of my family."

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  • Vanessa  •  Roanoke, Virginia  •  3 months ago
    I am sure it IS hard to live without your children - but only a selfish SOB - would not
    allow these babies the chance to experience life for themselves. The joy of a girlfriend,
    graduating, your first job, your first car, first ballgame, so many first - they will never know.
    • WarWalker 3 months ago
      Right-on, V! Exactly, self-absorbed cry baby.
    • Death 3 months ago
      The joy of meeting your first Nazi!
    • Recently Freed Slave 3 months ago
      @ WarWalker...You meant self-absorbed S.O.B., right?
  • KristmasDawn  •  Wichita, Kansas  •  3 months ago
    When is our system going to learn that if they have to have supervised visits that means that they don't think it's a safe enviorment so why chance it? I'm so sorry to Judy and Chuck for their loss of not only their daughter but their grandchildren. I can't even imagine what they're going through. My prayers and thoughts are with your family. I hope you find their your daughter and I hope that they put Josh's father behind bars.
    • WoodysWorld 3 months ago
      Wichita... this is a tragedy, however until you have social services or child protective services BLAST into your life you will never understand any of this. It is totally a guilty until proven innocent system and the parents have no rights.
  • mj  •  St Louis, Missouri  •  3 months ago
    If a child is a witness to a crime but can not talk yet it's no problem to the person who committed the crime. My concern is when that child reaches the age they can start taking that's when the child's life is in danger. Child experts and law enforcement really need to be smart about this.
    • Billy 3 months ago
      they just said the boys were finally starting to talk about it...
    • Itasca guy 3 months ago
      The kids maybe needed a witness protection program. Law enforcement needs to look at this case hard and realize a wacko parent might want to eliminate witnesses.
    • Rob 3 months ago
      so then... they let him visit.... a murder suspect... hang the government people involved.
  • D.  •  3 months ago
    Yup, like his sister said, "Hate kills", maybe similar actions in the hatred her brother demonstrated by "losing his wife" 2 years ago, and then again by the last acts of heinous brutality he perpetrated against his 2 innocent sons.
    • L'Aguila 3 months ago
      You are right and obviously better informed about the case details. This is one of those cases that leaves one wondering about some families.
    • heather 3 months ago
      His sister is a crazy train too- I dont understand how so many people can justify anything about his actions- this world is sick.
    • Weston 3 months ago
      The whole Powell family, Steven, Josh, and sister are sickos. Must be in the genes.,
  • Steve  •  3 months ago
    His sister is just unreal-she is actually blaming everyone else-instead of her brother who murdered his own two sons out of spite and jealousy, and the father who shoulders most of the blame for bringing such circumstances on her brother in the first place. The more people from the family(and friends) comment, the more you can see this guy was a loser in the xtreme. Even his best friend says he only cared about himself. "I can't live without my boys."

    funny. they sure seem like they could have lived just fine without you! Of course, we'll never know that now since you are such a loser in death as you were in life. Its so plainly obvious either he or his father had something to do with his wife's disappearance and that if the kids had lived they would have eventually fingered him or his father in some way-so better to off them so no one ever knows where their mommy went. The whole family sounds like there are screws loose or missing. Yeah, he loved his kids so much he hacked at them with an ax before setting him and the house they were in on fire. Yeah, sister, its because of crushing hate. not the fact your brother was an immature murdering loser. get a grip.
    • Maya 3 months ago
      His sister and all his other sympathizers make me sick. If he couldn't live without them, he should have killed himself.
    • matthew r 3 months ago
      Yea agreed... kill yourself! No loving Father would kill his own kids.... selfishness to the extreme!
    • Sinda Anderson 3 months ago
      His sister is absolutely right, it's all about crushing hatred...HIS! He hated and murdered his wife, then he hated his own life because people didn't believe his crazy story, so he killed himself and his children. He was such a sick, narcissistic person that he felt his own children's lives should be sacrificed because things weren't working out the way he wanted them. I've seen people die trying to save their children, THAT's a loving parent. This guy was just a selfish pig who couldn't love anyone but himself.
  • Helga Thrash  •  3 months ago
    But they could have lived without you!
  • Little Irish  •  Baltimore, Maryland  •  3 months ago
    He couldn't live without his sons so they couldn't live either?? Those boys could've had a long life, could've grown up to be something amazing. They could've made a positive impact on this world. For all he knew, one or both of those boys could've grown up to become the President of the United States or something. But he had to rip their future away from them because he was so selfish!
  • MJ  •  New York, New York  •  3 months ago
    This story broke my heart when I read about it yesterday. Now knowing that this man tried to kill the kids before blowing them up, but didn't suceed, its just sickening. I wish I didn't know about this because I will probably not stop thinking about it. So very sad.
  • steve  •  Loris, South Carolina  •  3 months ago
    Supervised visits should be done at a secure location such as the Sheriff's department and the supervised parent should be searched before entering and deputies present. Apparently should not be left up to Child PROTECTIVE Services to PROTECT the children.
  • !  •  3 months ago
    It would be understandable if he had grief over the fear of losing his sons, but it is complete ego-driven selfishness that drove him to take those boys with him. He may not have been able to live without them, but it is apparent that the only way THEY would have lived is without him. He isn't sorry. He is a child murderer.
  • Terry  •  Waltham, Massachusetts  •  3 months ago
    The mere fact that he brutally murdered his children with a hatchet demonstrates he was very angry and vindictive individual. How can anyone say they love their children so much, that they cannot live without them do such a violent act. I cannot imagine the horror those kids may have been going through during their last minutes of life. Make no mistake, this was not a act of a "innocent man" being harrased to a breaking point.
  • Lucy  •  3 months ago
    He loved his sons so much that he...."[attacked] his two young boys Braden, 5, and Charles, 7, with a hatchet" Under whose definition would ANYONE consider that love? He murdered his children because they knew he killed mommy...evil, pure evil. I hope he feels the flames for eturnity - and even that is not long enough.
  • T  •  3 months ago
    The 2 people your children trust and admire the most are their parents. How could ANY person let alone a parent hatchet their children? The saddest part is these poor kids.
  • Rocked  •  3 months ago
    Maybe It's just me, but it seems like every other week there's a story about someone murdering their kids. You use to hear about this type of thing every few years but something strange is happening lately. People are losing their humanity.
  • Shay  •  3 months ago
    His sister wants to blame everyone else but her brother. How sad is that!
  • Nate Madsen  •  Arvada, Colorado  •  3 months ago
    The comments by Powell's sister read like she's trying to place the blame on someone else and make this guy the victim. Nope. Sorry. The victims in this situation are the mother (who most believe Powell murdered) and his two sons which he DID murder. Rot in Hell Josh Powell.
  • AlienCatfish  •  3 months ago
    Hitler took care of his family too. The sister sounds as unbalanced as the brother. I say take the father off suicide watch. This would save a million or so in attorney fees and court costs. Using these savings to fire the judge and morons at social services and hire people that have some common sense and an idea of what they are doing. Give the remainder to a good cause/charity.
  • Deborah  •  Arrington, Tennessee  •  3 months ago
    My heart just breaks for the grandparents, first they loose their daughter and now both of their grandsons. I can't even begin to imagine the pain they are in now.
  • william  •  Dayton, Ohio  •  3 months ago
    i see alot of people criticizing the courts and police for the handling of the custody issues. they seems to all be suggesting that it, in many ways led to the deaths of powell and his sons. the police and courts were wrong for wanting to take his kids from him? HE KILLED THEM WITH A FREAKING HATCHET!!! this "fit" father killed his children by hacking them to death with a hatchet!!! how the hell can all of you people continue to defend him and make him the victim?!?!?!! he WAS a threat to his children!!! i think that has been proven. unbelieveable....
  • Larry  •  Lenexa, Kansas  •  3 months ago
    I watched my daughter go through a divorce a few years ago in a situation very similar to this. The judges , social works , attorneys pay no attention people like this guy. They use no logical common sense , just what the letter of the law reads. This kind of senseless killing happens every day in this country. It makes me sick.